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You and Me
And suddenly, it felt like April 2024, when it was just you and me.
Junnieec
Jan 61 min read
Am I Meant For Destruction?
I recently saw the scene of Shark Boy and Lava Girl, where she desperately asks Max why he made her like that. "Everything I touch I destroy. Why did you make me like that? I have more potential." I felt her. I didn't know that scene from my childhood would resonate so deeply with a 20-something-year-old version of myself. I destroy everything that comes in my path. Before it shows me that it's not out to hurt, I ruin it. I have to protect myself first. But while I'm protecti
Junnieec
Nov 17, 20251 min read
Birthday Girl!
Monday, November 9, a queen was born! I just celebrated my birthday, and I've officially entered my late 20s. Which means I'm officially old. On my previous birthday, I wrote a little letter to myself because that year was one of the toughest I've ever been through (and I pray it stays that way). I reflected on all the trials and tribulations it brought me, but this ode is going to be a bit different. I am super grateful for the last year of my mid-20s, as it taught me a grea
Junnieec
Nov 11, 20251 min read
I Finally Understand Why God Didn’t Let It Work
I finally understand why God didn’t let him and me work out. Not only were we two twenty-somethings who had never had a real relationship or known what it truly meant to love and be loved, but we also just didn’t match. There was no true compatibility. Yeah, we liked each other and had strong feelings, even love, but that’s not what it takes to sustain a relationship. Our key foundation was missing: understanding. I felt misunderstood, even when it came to the simplest things
Junnieec
Oct 26, 20252 min read
My First Lent 2025)
After such a rough and challenging 2024, I knew I needed to let God and Jesus know how grateful I was for getting me through that season. And I thought, what better way to show thankfulness than to participate in Lent? I had never truly practiced Lent before. I tried once in 2024 but didn't make it past the first few days. However, I was so thankful for God's protection and healing that I felt I had to follow through this time. Some of my family members observed Lent, but th
Junnieec
Oct 22, 20253 min read
I’ll Still Choose You
Even when the world says we can’t be, I’ll still choose you.
Junnieec
Oct 22, 20251 min read
Villain
For the past couple of months, I've been wondering if I'm the villain. Why? Because four men have blocked me in three months. Now, I'm not the one to care too much about what men do, or say, or their feelings for that matter. But my most recent block came from someone I really loved. That's when I started thinking: if four men can block me in such a short time, maybe I'm the common denominator. Perhaps I'm the problem. Surely I must be the problem, right? "Damn, what did I d
Junnieec
Oct 17, 20253 min read
Three Months In The City!
Three months in the city, that has a nice ring to it, doesn't it? You guessed it: this is my three-month update from New York City. The second and third months here looked more like how I thought my first month would've gone. I've done so many things, so many explorations. I've met new people, gone out, and just lived. It's been a fantastic experience. I've learned that there's so much to do here, and you'll want to do everything, which also means everything is expensive. Y
Junnieec
Oct 8, 20254 min read
I Am My Father’s Daughter
My thin, dark almond eyes, my thick, natural hair, the birthmarks trailing down my back, the stubbornness lodged inside me, the way I ignite at the slightest spark. They say I’m just like him. Is being my father’s daughter Why am I cast as the villain? The problem child pastors prayed over? The girl who left the man she loved for thoughts she invented in her own head? Am I my father’s daughter because, once betrayed, I turn weakness into a weapon? Because I’m impulsive? Becau
Junnieec
Sep 20, 20251 min read
Finding Jamaica in New York
Introduction: Leaving Home I was born at Victoria Jubilee Hospital in Kingston, Jamaica. I migrated with my paternal family to the United...
Junnieec
Sep 16, 20253 min read
Every Move, I Buy the Same Thing.
Does anyone else have that one item you always buy whenever you move into a new place? No matter where you go, there’s always that one...
Junnieec
Sep 8, 20252 min read
Trying to Find Peace in My Solitude
As I walked through the streets of New York, I couldn’t help but notice that everyone had a plus one. Whether it was their family, friends, or partner, they had someone with them. From the outside looking in, it seemed like they were enjoying each other's company. Seeing that after moving to a new state all by myself made me feel a bit homesick. Today, being Sunday, definitely didn't help. I’m used to spending Sundays with my family, gathered around a nice, home-cooked Jamaic
Junnieec
Aug 25, 20253 min read
Happy One Month!
I packed two suitcases and moved to the city on the 4th of July! Celebrating My New Life in New York City To celebrate my one-month...
Junnieec
Aug 8, 20253 min read
A Month in the Big Apple: Love Triangles
I thought my first two weeks in NYC would be about meeting new people, rooftop parties, running in Central Park, and just welcoming this new chapter with peace. Instead, I found myself in not one, but two love triangles, and somehow, I was the third party in both. In honor of my one month in the Big Apple, I figured I should share how those first two weeks actually went. But to do that, we have to rewind to March/April 2025. I met the first guy, we’ll call him Waffles, online
Junnieec
Aug 4, 20254 min read
Quietly yearn
I’ll quietly yearn for you.
I’ll set you free out loud, I’ll bottle the ache in my chest,
push it deep inside me,
Praying one day
I can release it,
and love you loudly again. Until then, I’ll quietly yearn for you.
Junnieec
Jul 9, 20251 min read
Strong
I gotta be strong now. I have to let you go. I won’t stand in your way. But at the same time, I can’t bear the thought of you with someone else, giving her all your attention and love, laughing with her the way you laughed with me. The way she’ll gaze into your beautiful, cat-like eyes, how you’ll help her with little things, just like you did for me. Then the inevitable: giving her your surname, creating mini versions of you. The pain that thought brings is almost too much t
Junnieec
Jul 9, 20251 min read
Big City
I packed up my belongings and moved to the big city, The Big Apple, as they call it. No clear plans, no real guidance, just hopes and dreams. My family is over a thousand miles away, scattered across the globe. Now that I’m here, I find myself at a crossroads. I’m finally in the city I dreamed of my whole life, But I’m by myself. No friends yet. Love life is on the brink of shambles. I don’t have my family to run to anymore. It’s just me, and the quiet of the apartment. The o
Junnieec
Jul 8, 20251 min read
June
June 1st. My mind floods with memories of last June. A June where you existed. A June where you left. A June where I almost lost all of me. A June when I had to let you go to protect myself. A June filled with tears, heartbreak, fatigue, arguments, and loneliness. A June where I still loved you, despite it all. Now, a year later: A June without you. A June that feels lighter. A June without angst.
Junnieec
Jun 1, 20251 min read
Unlove you.
I won’t love you anymore. This is where we end. I will no longer wish for us to find our way back to each other. I will unlove every bit of love I ever felt for you. I will keep going as if we never spoke. I will erase every memory of you from my mind. I will forget that we ever existed. I won’t love you anymore. This is where we end.
Junnieec
Apr 3, 20251 min read
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